Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Reflection

As the year comes to a close, I thought I should reflect upon the year which has passed, and then prayerfully seek for directions and guidance for the new year.

So many things happened this year: I married the girl of my life, we set up a family of our own, we went to Europe for the first time for our honeymoon, I participated in a lot more races and widened my experience in trail ultra-racing, there were setbacks at work, there were valuable lesions that I have learned at work, a dear friend passed away in a waterfall accident, my love for God and interest for spiritual matters fluctuated a lot this year, one of my best friends broke up after a stable relationship of four years, I took a break from running after northface singapore etc. As much as I have tried to plan my life a certain way to avoid disappointment and keep things under control, unexpected things happen which swung me out of balance and my comfort zone.

Bachelor's Party with the 2 Js. 
Marrying the girl of my life


Caleb (middle) - one of my best friends got married this year
Honeymoon in Sweden
Northcape - watching midnight sun
My brothers in Christ
Bringing my in-laws for a walk around our house
The two horses who live with us
Fraser Island
Kevin (right) - a man who has such a big heart for people, passed away in a tragic waterfall accident while trying to rescue someone 
Adelene Williams - a friend in my hometown, who is both beautiful and godly, passed away in a tender age of 28 from SLE
No matter what the events are, it seems like the objects of my reflection always revolve around these five themes: God/spirituality, marriage, running, work/medicine, and friendship. Each of the above subjects deserves a proper look into as they are things which i hold very special in my heart. My walk with God has been very shaky and sometimes almost non-existent, especially toward the later part of the year, mainly because i have wilfully chosen not to place Him first. As for marriage, it has its ups and downs. The joy of having a companion who shares the same bed and roof as you is so very real, which on the flip side, also drives each other mad sometimes. I will talk about these some other time.

For this post, i will share what I have learned from running this year. I have learned that if you put your heart and soul into something, be willing to work extremely hard and suffer, you will most certainly achieve what you set out to do. I have surprised myself in many ways in my running journey this year. I would say from the outset that I have never been a great runner. I only really picked up running when I was 16 and I have been inconsistent in my training, hence producing only very average results. Prior to 2012, I have never officially ran a sub-40 min 10km or sub-3hr marathon. I never thought there were possible for me. It's only in 2012 when I started training high mileage(~100-140km/week) and throwing in some high intensity work-up that I began to see that maybe I have been wrong all these while. What i had done subconsciously is setting limitation on myself such that I never even dared to dream of doing something faster.

Look, no one taught me how to train before. I never had a coach, or a training manual which tells me the purpose of each type of training run: long run, tempo run, fartlek, speed intervals, uphill sprints, downhill sprints etc. After reading Born to Run in 2011 when I was in South Africa, I got infected with the running bug and started running long distance as I wanted to see how far and how long i can go. After finishing first in TMBT 50km 2011 (my first win in a major race), I started to believe that maybe I do have what it takes to run fast, especially in ultra-distances. 2012 was a year of alternating intensive high mileage weeks and injuries for me. Even though I did not have any outstanding performance leading up to TMBT, I managed to - with God's strength - win TMBT 100km. Thinking back, it was definitely a miracle because I completely buggered both my knees up three weeks from the race. That was the turning point for me. It was then that I started to believe that you can achieve anything you put your heart and soul into.


TMBT 50km 2011
TMBT 100km 2012
How I love the ice bath!
During the lay-off period between 2012 and 2013 racing season, I started to research more into running techniques, forms, training programmes etc. I bought a number of books to understand more about the sport. Some notable great books I have read are: The greatest: The Haile Gebrselassie Story, Hansons Marathon Method, Running with joy by Ryan Hall, and More Fire: How to train the Kenyan Way, Eat and Run by Scott Jurek. Then I extracted their training programmes and created something which suited my time and style. I started alternating my easy-moderate runs with intensive speed work-out. The easy-moderate run is to build a superior aerobic base, whereas the speed and tempo sessions are meant to add extra space into my lungs and build explosive strength in my legs. As a result, I finished second in Mt Mee Marathon in a time of 3:13, with ~1000m of elevation gain. Were it be flat, I think I could have gone 2:45-2:50. Three weeks later, I won my first solo race in Australia in the Cook's Tour 50km. After that, my confidence increased and I continued to plan my training strategically and specifically for the race that I was doing. The result? A podium finish in all the other races that I participated (except a DNF in Northface Singapore).

Finishing 2nd in Flinder's Tour 50km after taking two wrong turns and ended running 2km extra
TMBT 100km 2013
I was not saying the above in an arrogant or self-centred manner. The point I was making is: If you really believe you could do something, and are willing to pay the price and suffer for it, you will achieve what you set out to do. However, it's important to note that, hard work is one side of the coin. Success also requires a tremendous amount of drive and self-motivation, with a considerable dosage of smart and intelligence in understanding the science of running and your own body. If you are running the same distance, same time, same pace, and the same terrain every day, you are likely not to improve. It's by varying the terrain and the pace which help to broaden your running capability.

My biggest regret this year is not being able to run a road marathon. I scored ~76-78 for my VO2 max this year. The reason I don't have a precise reading is because the nose piece fell out in the last minute of the trial, causing my breath to escape. Hugo told me I could have even reached 80 if I had continued with the nose piece intact - the highest he has ever measured in an athlete (For comparison, Kilian Jornet scored 89 during the summit of my life project). Yes you can argue that VO2 max is just another reading which has no predictive value whatsoever in how fast a person can run. Running time also rests on another important factor: the running economy (which measures your running efficiency). I would add that a person's mental strength, pain tolerance, motivating factor also play an equally important role in determining the success of his/her career. With a reasonably high VO2 max and relatively good running economy, I am excited to see how fast i can go in a road marathon. I am predicting something in the range of 2:35-2:45. If i really train my butt off (and have all the essential checklist of a successful running reason ticked off), I think i may even be able to go under 2:35.

VO2 max test
My next biggest regrets are: not being able to join the Tour de Malaysia run and not being able to traverse Titiwangsa Range (in Malaysia) in the fastest time possible. My schedules this year have been stretched to the limit such that I could not fork out any extra time to join them in the quest. Allan Lee and Seow Kong (the core runners in Tour de Malaysia run) are good friends and folks whom i admire a lot. What they have done in Malaysia and in their own running career are simply phenomenal. I can only wish I could emulate half of what they have achieved.

Two legendary runners in Malaysia - Seow Kong and Allan Lee
Actually, saying the above means nothing now. Because there is no way I would be able to do them, at least not in the next four years. I am announcing this because I have completely different priorities in life now. One of them is - without a question - my work. I have been spending most of my time in the past two years running that I have spared little time to improve my medical knowledge and skill. It is a deliberate decision that I had made in the beginning of my internship that I wanted to invest more time in running, because hey, If i really wanted to pursue my passion, this is the time to do it right? Especially in the first two years of work when people don't demand so much from you. After this, people started to expect more from you. So I am making plans now to seriously discipline myself to study and read widely. Sometimes I have to remind myself of the following: Running is my passion; but medicine is my calling. I have an even stronger responsibility toward the sick, and my number one aim is to help relieve them of their suffering. So after messing around for two years, now is time to work hard.

I will share the other priority some time in the future, when the time is right. :D

I have two more races to do in 2014, and after that, no more. First race is Burden run on 26 Jan in University Malaysia. I have been intrigued to run this race because the idea of running with a 10kg sand bag sounds fun to me. The next race is Titi 50km/100km on 14 Feb, a race organised by a great friend Allan Lee and friends. I am only doing the shorter distance which is 50km, because i don't have the time and energy to train for another 100km. I am looking forward to racing in home soil.

So i will be saying goodbye to competitive running pretty soon. While I do so with a heavy heart, I can only say that this would only lead to a greater good. Human can only do that much. I believe that God has His plan and I have to be obedient in following His ways.

I went for a run with Bruce Cook this evening and I was listening to his stories. This man is a running legend, who has PRed in every distance from 3km - 100km back in the 80s and 90s. He ran 8:24 for 3km, 30:14 for 10km, 1:08 for 21km, 2:28 for 42km, 3:10 for 50km, 5:56 for 80km and 7:31 for 100km. While listening to his secrets for success, I can't help but to be in awe of what he has achieved. At the end of the run i asked him: 'Bruce, do you think i would still be able to run my personal best when i make a come-back in my 30s?' Without any hesitation, he said: Hell ya! 

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